21 Days, 21 Days at a Time Rightly Applied

It is a new Dawn!  The small and simple things that I have learned over the past have led me to this new experiment of Trial and error, observing what I've learned and then recording how I will apply what I've learned and then following up on it thru this blog. Establishing Accountability and trust of self. All in the cause of the self discipline, being Healthy and not caving in to the addiction of self misery, self doubt, slothfulness, over eating and other assorted "Kelly Issues"!  I know it's public, it's out there... and if it's too self oriented, way too much information - well then STOP READING!  This is for me to be converted to my own new self established new program - 21 days, 21 days at a time to be a more healthy self, wife, empty nester, grandmother, friend, relative, church going woman!

The compare issue...

The one thing Positive that I look back on from my Youth was that I was always so proud to have a "Flat Stomach"!  My girl friends and I (and yes I did used to have friends I know that my children will not believe that!) used to stand in front of the mirror and inspect our bodies looking for imperfections. For example; I remember Debbie saying she was so much cooler than me cuz my thighs touched all the way down! Hers did not.  But on the other hand I had the flat stomach she had a pooch!  I'll stop there the rest really might be too much information and she isn't here any more to defend this conversation.  I miss you Deb.  When I graduated from High School I weighed in at 107 pounds and was 5'3".  I liked being considered short, sassy and lovable! a force not to be reckoned with lightly!

Life's consequences...

I lost my flat stomach after my first baby and continued from there to loose self esteem for the body, because that was the only "flattering" characteristic I believed that I had.  Well, I liked my freckles!  And now they have even turned on me and can all be considered perspective sources of cancer I have learned. Karma, life, trials all pretty much suck.  Then I go into self misery and doubt.  Hide in my house, don't answer my phone make excuses for going out and or Doing just about any thing.  Except when it comes to my husband, my kids or my seminary class and for them I would go and Do just about anything.  Which leads me to today, to this new Dawn in my life's journey.  No kids, No Seminary.  I've been this way for 4 months.  What is "This Way" I ask myself.  No life, No purpose, Nothing to do, No one to care for, again with the self misery, the self doubt and the wa! wa!  For the past 2 weeks I keep hearing that Wilson kid from the SEAHAWKS quote his Dad "Why Not You", if I was going to quote my Dad it would sound more like its time to "Shit or get off the Pot".  I am striving to do that today Daddy, wish me luck!

Change and Depression cause weight gain for me...

I can remember exactly the first time I bought (because I had to) size 13 pants! we lived in Vancouver Washington I had just quit my job to stay home and be a Mom. Making that change was a very hard "Choice" for me, but one I have never regretted any day of my life since wether we had money or not.  I can also remember exactly the first time I bought size 18 pants we were going to see Reba at the Tacoma Dome with some friends, I had gained so much weight I had only sweats to wear, we lived in Elma Washington Dec. 1995.  I have been on a roller coaster since that size 13 just trying to get back to a size 7 where I remember liking myself and being comfortable in my own flat stomach skin!  The following is me recording that roller coaster of trying, which in Richards words - "Trying is for Losers" has become my own downfall, creating walls with no windows some might call it - hermit status.  Then there was the day I had to buy size 20 - I was chasing 3 kids at home had a daughter in college and taking care of 2 older women living with us, not taking care of myself at all.  Roswell New Mexico 3 hours from anywhere!!   All I can say here is thank the good Lord for a church that requires a person to give by doing a "calling" which allowed me to give service and to study, pray, and learn all at the same time; it was in those days,  my only saving grace.

The Roller Coaster -

The Soup Diet, The Grapefruit Diet, Slim Fast, Metabolife, Eat and Be Lean, Weight Watchers, Take Shape For Life (Medifast), HCG, Solutions4 and Cleansing Detox all programs I have "tried" and both won and lost at!  In this dawn of a new season of my life I am going to apply the quote "Doctrine understood changes BEHAVIOR" by Boyd K. Packer from each of these programs I did in fact learn at least ONE thing that FOR ME is applicable and Best, something that will indeed create a lifestyle change using the knowledge that it takes 21 days to create a habit.   I want strong GOOD BETTER BEST habits in my lifestyle, I want to believe that they CAN BE to STRONG to be BROKEN.  That GOOD does WIN over BAD.


21 Days 21 Days at a Time

• Program
• Doctrine that I learned from doing it that helped me individually
• How will I apply this knowledge and change my Behavior   

1. The SOUP diet; it's highly good for you. It might be one meal of the day by the second day the soup is old and who wants to eat 8 bananas on wednesday!!??? Often we are willing to do the Great Big Thing, but not the small and simple things. Whatever, It makes since to me!  I'm gonna stop eating and just do this and then go back to what I was doing.  That doesn't work, not matter what the topic!  That isn't changin behavior.
2. The grapefruit diet;  grapefruit is a great meal for breakfast and who doesn't like bacon!
3. Slimfast; drink liquid don't eat food makes you loose weight.  Taste buds were never satisfied, I like food seems unnatural to ONLY drink.  Their is a need for protein, nutritional nutrients and must drink healthy!  Drink Water.
4. Metabolife; pills can boost your energy. Zane would ask "Why the hell do you need a pill when you wake up to get moving you just had 8 hours of sleep?".  Well my metabolism was screwed up.  Because I was running faster than I was physically able and thus turning to a quick fix.  Diet pills are not the answer.  Sometimes they aren't in the budget! Most times they affect the body in unnatural ways and can hurt your body even kill you.   Avoid chemicals and stimulants.
5. Eat and Be Lean; counting fat grams is a great skill. Replacing oil with applesauce also useful.  But on this program I was eating tons of muffins with converted recipes because she counted fat grams.  I am a carb addict.  I can eat a whole bag of chips, a complete bowl of popcorn WITH Butter, a foot long etc etc etc any time of day or night.  Along with the carbs comes the sugar.  If you know something isn't good for you avoid it.  At the time, I didn't really understand what works for her might be bad for me.  For instance; I taught my kids to never take a drink of alcohol. My reason was just this and I won't put my Father and my brothers, and my husbands Grandmother on the "A.A." list for them, I guess only they could have done that.  But it's in the blood and alcoholism has it's own consequences, is a problem for addicts and definitely runs in the blood stream of their heritage. Lets just say I got out lucky. My Mother, and both of her siblings had "The Sugar!".  My Sister died as a consequence of Sugar Diabetes.  I have the suffered and become aware of the toxins and consequences of Candidia.  Carbs make this condition worse and out of control for me. I "want" to say; absolutely No White Flour and White Sugar.   My Name is Kelly I am a "carbaholic", and a "caffeine alcoholic".  BEWARE and avoid.  This program did have a great record keeping format; journaling is a skill.  While eating, use this rule; in this order fill up on ... Water, Protein, Veggies, fruits, grain (carbs)! - for me anyway thats not the order she taught it!!!
6. Weight Watchers; Amric liked counting points, I did not. It has it's benefits. I will count carbs and calories.  I learned that I must keep track of what I eat.  I must weekly weigh in. I must take care of myself to enable me to take care of others.  Use a fork for dressing and condensed fruit is deceiving and a big waste of points/calories!
7. TSFL; small meals *3 hours apart, (they call it the 5 and 1 plan) with one meal of more substance. For me it is workable and achievable.  I lost 63 pounds in 6 months.  I had the best time wearing smaller clothes and mostly I remember the energy I had to keep up with Sammymantha, it was a Great summer!! I also started walking.  I liked walking, my kids bought me shoes that talked to my ipod and I loved that time for me. Be careful of your music choices it's really a time to feed your mind positive uplifting impressions. It's expensive, I don't always have the money to buy the bars, I didn't like the food in the cups nor the liquid drinks.  I really don't like ANY of anybody's drinks - I want FOOD! If I'm gonna drink-- well we covered that.  Because I ran out of money and my Mother died and I went into depression I gained this lost weight back plus 20 pounds.  I will continue to eat like clockwork every 3 hours allowing 100 calories at each meal and it doesn't need to be a bar it can be a hand full of veggies, a boiled egg, or a bowl of soup.  My substantial meal needs to not be over 600 calories.  Eat Slow.
8. HCG; 500 calories a day and drops of something that helps you not be hungry is wrong! But a great jump start to clean you out and get you started. But it's not over and it's not long lasting it's only a jump start - ask yourself whats next before even starting.
9. Solutions4; I learned so much, I will be continually learning from this program.  It's the applying I'm having a hard time with because it's such a lifestyle change.  I grew up on red meat and potatoes, milkshakes and cheese crisps!  Herbs are good for you (also super expensive), and come in all sorts of grades. Again no white flour or sugar, use Brown Rice - watch the carbs, fruit grows the candida. A Partner helps a GREAT deal - Richard did this one with me.  Must plan ahead and be prepared with your mind made up about choices, again keep a journal, budget money, calories, carbs and exercise is a must.  It's a mind thing, your mind has to be in it.  This program used We both lost 50ish pounds on this journey over the 5 months - 84 day set up for change in lifestyle program.  We also went down 3 sizes in clothes.  Also, again, SUPER EXPENSIVE.  When Stress happens or Vacations occurs don't say "it's ok to eat what I want for now".  If you have a office worker or family or friend making the effort to change behavior be a helper, a good healthy supporter not that person your mom never wanted you to hang out with. Don't be a tease, a tempter, a bully! Be positive, cheerful, uplifting.   Remember in the end though ONLY YOU CAN CONTROL YOU, sometimes you are all you've got.  Prepare yourself for battle everyday, Be prepared with the choice made ahead of time.  Even it's only I can do this 21 days 21 days at a time -ONE Day at a Time. Decide this - I will apply knowledge.  Experience is Knowledge. Wisdom is Knowledge rightly applied. 
10. The Cleansing Detox; I have felt toxic at times that is for sure.  I don't think it hurts to do some sort of detox twice a year maybe even quarterly.  Why not do a 24 hour fast Once a Month!
11. Isagenix so far I have not learned anything.  I have been buying the vitamins and "food" for a year now. I just can't committ I guess to  never eating real food again. The vitamins do seem to be a value and the protein shake is the best one I've tried. What do I need to motivate me to really DO this???

So for the first set of 21 days I  set the goal to exercise and keep a record/journaling.  I DID IT! I used the term the "4C's" -Carbs, calories, calisthenics,Cash. Over the years I am learning all of these things need to be budgeted for and reported on establishing accountability and trust.  For me it has to be done DAILY.  The next 21 days I will eat small meals every 3 hours - *5 and 1 - (as explained in number 7 previously) with continued calisthenics (the habit already established now) and adding get Up and Read!  When Amric left on his mission I wanted to sacrifice something too, as he was (is) my choice was to **keep the missionary hours (WOW I suck at this one) and not adding any "new" TV ! With all the changes in the last 6 months I am not teaching any more so I'm **not studying, I still read daily, but I'm not studying, the goal to make the habit "get Up and Read" will help with **both these issues!  My 21 day habit will then be choosing because I "thirst and hunger" (get it? it's about food) after good better best choices for myself, and not just because tomorrow I have to teach.  I want to Choose to be committed not be compelled to. It's just not in my nature, when compelled I will always make the wrong unhealthy choice.  With the help of my Heavenly Father I will be WISE!

note; 

• I didn't plan for this to be so long. I talk way more than needed to get my point across but you know that by now!
• I still don't know how to link this post with another post in this blog... so I'm using the labels to do that for pictures and posts about eating habits diet (see labels posted at bottom of this blog) soooo.... as they say -"use your words" in the "Labels" gadget also on the side tabs in the web version of this blog

Remember Who You Are in spite of the the Media

I have been updating my Life History see the blogs "I POaST about my life", what an interesting enlightening experience to write your own life history!  With the children gone and so much silence in the house I have also been getting to know myself - You have time to do that when nobody is around!!!  One of the reasons this is more clear to me just today is how the media knows me, like or better than a friend (which is ridiculously scary) for instance it's suggestion for me to watch on You Tube are; Pearl Jam and Elder Holland, Laugh-In and President Monson!

My thought here is a quick one.  It's media related as I have posted these blogs and even as I look back on my annual christmas letter I have included TV SHOWS, MOVIES and MUSIC that were "Popular" that influenced my life that year.  
Looking at this information I just want to comment on how I didn't recognize as a child under 6 the things that were influencing me, like The Rolling Stones, the sad sad Country Western songs that I loved to listen too or the Nancy Sinatra song "These boots".  I can go to all the words to these songs in my head without any effort or searching.  
That the mere mention of Mayberry, Oil, wiggling of the nose or these boots are made for walkin' - well, it just all makes me smile and floods my mind with memories.  These being good memories we won't go to what conjures up the not so good ones, and I can rationalize and make excuses for that because I was home alone or my Mother watched soaps too or my dad wasn't around much!  Yes! I am who I am today, I am happy with that, but if I could do anything over I guess it would be to be more cautious about media (WOW! I know, my leaders are gasping - they told me so way back when! yada yada yada!) so simply as the music in the car when I was driving with my kids!  

Yesterday I was kayaking and my ipod played "Christian" tunes, what a different feeling vs the usual playlist when I walk with the attempt to motivate and metablulate!!! Is that a word??? I don't think so!  But I was motivated and my heart was beating (and today my arms are sore!) we are and do what we feed ourselves mentally, physically and spiritually.  As a parent we are also feeding our kids, it could be related to second hand smoke right - that has proven to be bad for us too.

Thus my point is of course to my children, nieces and and nephews, to my seminary students and anyone else that might read this ... who have children and or will have children some day.  Be cautious in what you listen to, watch or let your children listen to, watch, or even read.  We think they are little they don't even understand, which might be the problem - it is in their heads,  and they don't even understand, how will they remember it or who they are?  

I like this Quote:
"Oh, what impact advertising, television programs, the internet and other media are having on our family units!" -L.Tom Perry

and I like this Scripture:
Mosiah 4:30 But this much I can tell you, that if ye do not ^awatchyourselves, and your ^bthoughts, and your ^cwords, and your deeds, and observe the commandments of God, and ^dcontinue in the faith of what ye have heard concerning the coming of our Lord, even unto the end of your lives, ye must perish. And now, O man, remember, and perish not.

Singing Dead ... yet another Dream

Emotional Goodbyes and Discord????

The dreams, they just keep on coming!  More real more complete, more colorful!  If I could just put it all together I probably would have all my life's questions answered!!!

the Lyman family in Blanding 1956

To begin with my mom was singing to me - She NEVER SANG! I never heard her sing except at church!  One thing she always liked about going to the Lyman Family reunions and get togethers was that they always sang.  In the dream, ;like I said She was singing in a quartet, with the "sisters Lyman" by the way.

  I was leaving to go into another room and she wanted to come too, but I oh so diplomatically sat her down on a pew. 

 When I went into the other room it was mostly white, with Drapes hanging from ceiling to floor and wall to wall.  For some unknown reason I started to clean - I was dusting with a rod and feather that reached to the top of the drapes.   In the corner was a cob web, I was pulling it away from the wall and down when all of a sudden I realized there were bugs. 
 Then I saw it a nest??? that looked like a hive, but it wasn't bees - it was little tiny bugs.  Thousands and thousands of them. When I went to knock it down the bugs flew at me and I ran back to the room with my mom.  She wasn't there any more.  

The scene pulled back like a camera pulling away and I was standing in a large room that looked like a chapel, with a piano, pews and me no one else.
 The piano started to play by itself no one singing or playing,
 but it was our old piano (remember the green one!) completely out of tune  (I can't hear a tune if I had too, yet I knew it was out of tune)..... fade to black!!!  

 Holy Moly now my dreams have directors!!! CUT!

Interpertation:

Singing 
To sing in your dream represents happiness, harmony and joy in some situation or relationship. You are uplifting others with your positive attitude and cheerful disposition. Singing is a way to celebrate, communicate, embrace and express your feelings.

To hear someone sing in your dream signifies emotional and spiritual fulfillment. Your mood is changing for the positive as your outlook in life is looking up.

Dead 
To see or talk to the dead in your dream forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd.This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss. If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in your life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it......To see and talk with your dead parents in your dreams represent your fears of losing them or your way of coping with the loss. You are using your dream as a last opportunity to say your final good-byes to them. 

Bug 
To see a bug in your dream suggests that you are worried about something. It is symbolic of your anxieties and/or fears. What is literally bugging you? Consider also the popular phrase "bitten by the bug" to imply your strong emotional ties or involvement to some activity/interest/hobby. 
Piano
To dream that the piano needs to be tuned indicates some aspect of your life is in discord. You need to devote more time to a relationship, family duties, project, or other situation.

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Music was! Music is. Music Will be????

Music Can Control You!

When My Sister Died the music in my life faded, when my brother Tom died the music in my life died right along with him.  I did not listen to any music for 1 or maybe 2 years!  The crisis of 2012 had the total opposite reaction!  I not only listened to but bought tons of tunes! So my question is; in our numbness what is it that we need or search for about the music in our lives?   Today out on a drive I had the thought I need to find new tunes! I need to find music with no association!  Music that doesn't speak memories, but that might start fresh memories.  I need a spark!

Music gets in your head it can control your thoughts without your awareness.  WOW! I hated it when I used to hear that.  Why we don't listen to people that are wiser and in "the know" I'll never understand!!!
I'm not sure where to go with the thought I had this morning - what music is there left to listen to that won't have association and if so what association can bring back a spark?
I, being raised totally on Old School "Western" and rebelling with Hard Rock and loving the music of my older kids in the 90's and bonding with the music of my younger kids in this new century!
I found this on a web site linked below -

Here are the results of his findings, as recorded on the Heriot-Watt University webpage:

• Indie fans have low self-esteem and are not very hard-working, but are creative.
• Heavy metal fans are very creative and at ease with themselves, but not very outgoing or hard-working.
• Rap fans have high self-esteem and are outgoing.
• Dance fans are creative and outgoing, but not very kind or generous.
• Country and western fans are very hardworking and outgoing.
• Reggae fans have high self-esteem and are creative, outgoing, kind, generous and at ease with themselves, but are not very hardworking.
• Classical music lovers have high self-esteem and are creative and at ease with themselves, but are not outgoing.
• Blues fans have high self-esteem and are creative, outgoing and at ease with themselves.
• Rock 'n' roll fans have high self-esteem and very creative, hardworking and at ease with themselves, but are not very kind or generous.
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Anything sound familiar?  WOW!
So I begin my search.  Wish me luck!   Ok nothing on the charts - top 11 itunes will work!  Some of it goes right into the before mentioned categories some is just not me, never was never will be!!!  Searching has lead me to ...  Bauer, Neon Trees and The Killers (Indie on the list above)... but, well I'm in my 50's!???  Maybe I'll go back to Ray Price! or learn to love R and B (not even on the list above)???  buscar mañana




Ok this morning I heard it!  I'm sticking with country - minus the relationships! IDK is that possible?!!!  
I love the old FAITH, WYNONNA, REBA, GARTH, GEORGE, SHANIA, TOBY and ALAN!  Yep, I was Happy in Roswell!!!!!

Characterized Media - WHO ARE YOU IN THE MEDIA?

ok I'm going to just start brain storming about this and see where I go...

My question is Why do we read or watch the stories that we do?
Some observations -

• I figured out why I always wanted to go to New York City!  Because I am That Girl!  Or anyway I wanted to be from 1966-1971!

• When I was a young married I had a woman I worked with tell me she did not let her daughter play with Barbie or watch any TV with a barbie character because "those girls" always had sex before they were married.
• When Apryl read as a child she said she did it because we moved so much that and the stories, and the people in the stories were always still there, not new,not different and didn't move away.  She liked getting "into the story" and being part of their lives.

• I have a great friend; Marion she told me once that she liked to read her "novels" because when the guy rides in on his horse and saves the day - she pictures Zane because he is her hero.
• My Daddy used to watch "All in the Family" every Sunday night, I loved to watch him laugh - I think he totally related and that is why he watched it - because part of his character was "Archie Bunker" and so he could relate!

• Back in the day when I watched "One Tree Hill" Tyler liked the girl Peyton I liked Brooke and Haley!

• The other night I was watching "Heart of Dixie" and the couple I've always rooted for turned into a familiar couple.  I guess that is what got me to thinking about this.  Are we familiar, do we know or recognize characters on the shows we watch or the stories we read - is that why we watch?  Who do we root for? Who do we hate together? Do we repeat that in our own lives?Does Apryl really just want to be Dr. WHO? No she wants to be Sydney Bristow maybe she wants Sean to be Dr Who!  Should we learn and try a different tact?  So Ayris Yes, you can root for Emily and Micah! Then last night Richard and I were watching TV and he made the comment that all "my shows" have cute boys in them - I wondered what does that mean? What do all of his shows have what are the characters he is attracted to? (Raymond, Captain Kurk, Doug Heffernan, and Sheldon Cooper) 
• What are we putting into our minds without thought.  What thoughts am I?

• Then there is me - I like TV, never really liked to read so much, I think now that is because it has always been so hard for me to concentrate. Because I like TV and I've been doing it for awhile narrowing down characters is a task sort of in my head let's see;  I loved Friday Night Lights, I wanted to look like and have the passion of Sarah Connor in Terminator (but wait thats not TV) so I will make that Nikita or more realistically cuz she's my age anyway Jo Denville!, I want to act like and have the will of Maxine Gray on Judging Amy, I really want the Sunday Family dinners on Blue Bloods, My nickname comes from "The Andy Griffith Show" I think because I wanted to be opie and have a Dad like him and my friends all called my mom Aunt B,  I always want to talk to the dead (I have so many on the other side) that I like shows like "Touch by an Angel" and "A Gifted Man", I liked the spunk of Reva on Guiding light, I can't believe how dumb  Emily is, and I loved to Hate JR Ewing.
• Ok so that's what I came up with by memory (which as everyone knows I don't have a memory!).  Then I googled top 10 shows of the 1960s, 70s and 80s to see what my foundation is of characters from ALLLLLLL the TV I've watched.  1960 I watched them all but the Patty Duke Show.  The 1970s - Yep I watched them all!  So the 80's get interesting I see that I start pulling back and not watching what everyone else is.  This is when the Detective/Mystery enters (Wiseguy and Hart to Hart), family comedies were in the home now in the 80's the comedy changes; it's no longer in the family it's in the Bar(CHEERS) and at War (MASH), the Day time Soap moves to nighttime (Dallas and Beauty & the Beast).
• The 1990s and now I have kids watching TV with me - and I'm watching WHAT????  TV changing even more Evil/Mystery enters = XFiles at the top of my list, the DaytimeSoap moves to nightime with ER a must see, Dawson in 1998 and the culture starts to change with the introduction of the comedies "Friends" and "Seinfield".
• Which brings me to the new century and what do I see?  what has happened?  "REALITY" has happened and I think it has replaced JR with the "love to Hate" relationship.  American Idol, Survivor, So You Think You Can Dance, now it's Big Brother, The Voice and Project Runway plus so many many more than I am not watching or invested in, or even heard of.  What about all the generation that is watching, they are and will be basing their foundation on this type of TV / media, what will become of them? Who are their role models or the characteristic traits that they will "want to be" or inherit without even knowing it - honey bobo?
• Now we are in yet a new decade (dang I'm getting up there in age!) who's character do I want to watch now?  Well Ziva's cool, Richard's says I'm Dani on Necessary Roughness,  
• Even before I started writing this I had come to the conclusion that I needed to really be more watchful of what I am putting in to my mind completely without thought and discern more clearly what I am watching on the TV.  We have a couple rules about TV in this house;

1. I know exactly (and have blogged about it already) the reason and time that caused us to choose to enforce the rule of no R rated movies.  Inside the house or out. Austin was 5.
2. We didn't allow MTV in the house.  I don't know how parents control that now.
3. Nowadays No rated M or pay TV channels.
4. No TV's in the bedroom or situated screens away from the doorway!!! in the house.  Only nowadays all of us can see anything anywhere, with the internet so readily available and smart phones, so now what are the rules?
5. With the invention of the DVR and since We had a TIVO in the house - no live TV.
• SO that leads me to this week before I even started writing this.  I recorded a new show that came out this week, let's just say it had to be stopped and removed from the cue.  Because of that and the experience Wednesday I think it was with that Alabama based show, I started down the cue I deleted 7 shows.  Thousands of hours of TV are stored in my brain.  What am I doing with it that I am not even aware of? 

I think my Richie is Andy Griffith, Mike Heck, Jethro Gibbs, Mike Baxter and throw in a little Mark Slade from High Chaparral (need a little cowboy in this mix) and of course Magnum PI!  Now thats a man!!!!

I had a seminary student once who was a very lean strong wrestler and he told me as I ate my nachos, that his mom taught him "You are what you eat".  Today in my analysis I guess I'm saying that especially without being taught any morals, You are what you watch.  If you are not exerting yourself in church, scriptures, prayer, service, if you are exerting yourself in media more than positive uplifting sources then what does our brain have integrated in its software, what does it have for reference in any given situation, trial, choice or consequence. I fight depression  I can't watch shows that go nowhere, that are rollercoaster story lines that have humor that isn't positive.  Otherwise I go there too and that's gotta stop.  We must not only be observers of kindness and morality but we must fight for the future and commit to FAMILY above all!!!

This isn't even where I thought I was going with this!!!! First of all I was just wondering what TV character I might be (I'm even more unclear of that now - guess I'm just me!) and what TV character Richard would be (glad I figured that out!)!  Looking at this and seeing what I watch I'd have to just say take it back a notch Kel and exert yourself in an other directions - GO ME for deleting shows from the cue!

I am Grateful for "Y" - Yesterday

I am grateful for Yesterday

 I am grateful for Yesterday because of the Music I was raised on from Old School Western to Rock to today's Country and everything in between!

Speaking of Yesterday .... here's a few

Because all of the yesterdays make me who I am today!! (like it or not!!) 

“Life, he realized, was much like a song. 
In the beginning there is mystery, in the end there is confirmation, 
but it's in the middle where all the emotion resides that makes the whole thing worthwhile.” 

--Nicholas Sparks

This video collage of music of my Yesteryear defiantly is the middle and full of emotion!!! 

As with every other decade you are raised in.

 I can "feel" where I was and what I was doing for every song.

I have no regrets for yesterday --
 for I would not be who I am today without Yesterday.

"Music expresses that which cannot be said
 and on which it is impossible to be silent." 
Victor Hugo

enough said about Yesterday

Music that leaves a memory!

Isn't music an interesting "thing"?  what is music anyway?  The dictionary says it can be an art.
Using art then I reveiw my life in music...my life in song;   Ray Price- For the Good Times, Eddy Arnold - the Last word in Lonesome is me, Barbara Streisand - People, Waylon and Willie singing Mamas don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys!, Johnny Cash, Merle Haggard, Loretta, And of course George, Van Morrison, Neil Young, Bob Dylan, Kris Kristofferson
Bob Seger - Night Moves, The BeeGees!!!!Tom Petty - Refugee, ELO, Jethro Tull, Peter Frampton, I guess I'll throw in a little Areosmith!, Journey, Styx, Bread, KISS, RodStewart, Bread,  On the Road again!, Highwayman - Highwaymen!,  REO, No Doubt, Matchbox 20, Pearl Jam, Wallflowers, Garth, Toby, Alan and then today... well I thought the 80's were bad!  Today I can't think of anyone I really could die for!!!

So as I reminisce thru music tonight on You Tube!!!! I can't find One song or even one genre of music that defines me!  It makes me smile, cry, Remember.  What I remember maybe being the problem or the not!  My thought today is BE CAREFUL the music you put into your brain...it stays there and never leaves!!!!

"Music is an important and powerful part of life. It can be an influence for good that helps you draw closer to Heavenly Father. However, it can also be used for wicked purposes. Unworthy music may seem harmless, but it can have evil effects on your mind and spirit.
"Choose carefully the music you listen to. Pay attention to how you feel when you are listening. Don't listen to music that drives away the Spirit, encourages immorality, glorifies violence, uses foul or offensive language, or promotes Satanism or other evil practices."


Today I heard a quartet of violins play The Lord Is My Shepherd it was beautiful and touched my heart.  Wouldn't it be nice to just have those kinds of feelings, memories to Remember.  To this memory I add Primary Colors, I am a child of God, Tell me the Stories of Jesus and I know the Scriptures are True.