Monday, March 20, 2017

Happiness Project Mindfulness - Be Prayerful

Yesterday at Church we talked about the need and importance of Prayer.  I felt inspired to "go home and write the impressions I had during this discussion down" and encouraged others to do so too.  And Thus we see here I am.  Testimony is an important thing to have, for if you have a testimony of something you stand for it tooth and nail, come hell or high water.  Once upon a time I was a teacher and a question I liked asking was "What is the One thing you Believe in?"  It was a cool thing for me to see what was important to those I spent everyday with.  Lately, well really I am on a roller coaster with prayer and not just lately.  I have a whole issue with the word submit.  Couple of things I specifically prayed for did not ever happen, some did and then fell apart and thus I then go straight to "why pray when He is going to do what He wants to do anyway". That attitude hasn't ever gotten me anywhere positive I can say for sure, and yet I roll back down speedily on the roller coaster of life at times, well more often than not I hate to admit.  The discussion yesterday was graciously led with the questions What? How? and Why? many personal experiences were shared and that was uplifting and a great reminder to me that Prayer is a mighty powerful source for many reasons in our lives.  So why don't we use it to it's full potential and why isn't it at the TOP of our Things We believe in List all the time or at least more often?   Since My Happiness Project topic is Be more Mindful and don't Procrastinate Here I am. Writing it down does help me remember and learn.  

These are the highlights that prompted remembrance of why I know that Prayer is One thing I believe in.

What to pray for?

  • In Matthew Jesus tells us "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."
  • Fathers and Mothers Pray for your children. I'm going to add Kids pray for your parents!  No really I'm so serious. One of my favorite most innocently observed prayers was answered was a miracle was pure it was hearing our son and daughter prayer for their parents.
  • Husbands pray for your wives.
  • Wives pray for your husbands.
  • Pray for Peace on earth. 
  • Pray for wisdom and understanding.
  • Pray for Forgiveness.
  • Ask for blessings.
  • Ask For Righteous Ambitions.
  • the question is what couldn't I pray about?!!!

How to Pray?

  • Individually, pray is personal.
  • Pray with your family.
  • There is something in the very posture of kneeling that contradicts the attitudes described by Paul in 2 Timothy:1-4 https://www.lds.org/scriptures/nt/2-tim/3?lang=eng
  • Pray with the expectation of answers.  (which of course requires faith - Yikes!)

Why Pray?

  • "Prayer unlocks the powers of heaven in our behalf."
  • "Be prayerful and the God of Heaven will smile upon you and bless you, and give happiness in your hearts and a sense of peace in your lives.
  • prayer is one of the basic medications that would check the character of our society. 
  • I know of nothing that will help ease the family tensions, bring respect for the parents lead to obedience, ... than will praying together...How tragic is the loss for any family that fails to take advantage of this precious and simple practice of praying together."

The constant thing that I kept remembering through out this discussion was hearing my mother pray.  Knowing that it was an action she took often, more than often. Knowing me and who I am, I know that without her prayers - her Motherhood pulling out all the stops, calling upon angels, her unconditional love Prayers; I first of all would not have even been born and lived, but could never have dug myself out of all the holes I so very quickly dug myself into. Only that miracle and power of a mother on her knees, begging for her daughter could have got me here today. In this I do believe and am grateful today to have been reminded of that pattern she taught me thru her act of prayer.

Many instances did come to my mind and I was reminded in my heart that prayer is good, it works it can be powerful and when you see it happen - you've seen a miracle.  Some things I have learned about prayer is that it is a discussion, a discussion takes more than one person. It's not one sided.  Garth had it right his song "Unanswered Prayer" at times we get what we pray for and well we shouldn't have even ask for that.  It reminds me of bugging my mom tell I got what I wanted, nothing good about that! Prayer is physical as well as spiritual. I'm all about no man being an island but having been on an island for awhile now, it's not all that peaceful! Prayer is mindful for sure and humbling. Both things are awkward in this world when it's moving so fast and we want to have it all and we think we can do it all Alone, for ourselves without submitting to anything or anyone.  In those instances what joy, what fun is there in it, even in achieving, if you are alone.

Friday, March 10, 2017

March! moves forward without me

Mindfulness

Smart  As I reflect and review the resolutions for March, I see it as a month that I'm really going to be in my head, and so far that is all i've done in March is be in my head!!!  WoW.  it is kinda amaZing how this, MyHappinessProject plays out.

Be Still
I am mindful that I don't like it; to be still.  I tend to think of all that I can not control when it is still.  I then become full of anxiety and panic.

Be Aware
I see that it is long into the month and I've lost days and weeks even, both in travel and being sick.  Then I recognize the trigger of paralyzation; the unknown.  Because of this topic making myself aware, I am making myself DO something TODAY to March Forward.

Education
I want to go to school, I talk about it. It is one of my only regrets that I didn't finish college. Then I remember, I'm not a classroom student, I don't actually learn well academically and my fear heightens.

Learn
In the effort to learn I have to really "Work" at it.  These last few months that effort has been being put into reading.  Believe me it is effort, work a big fat challenge!  For as much as I love books, paying attention is laborious.  Reference MyBlessing!

Be Humble  Defined as t
Me: Teachable - right? What I've learned is "if you have learned something you apply it." 
THEDICTIONARY: 
antonyms:proudoverbearing
  let's see what I learn about BeHumble this month!

Procrastination

For this HappinessProjectTopic made in October,  I'm going to concentrate on the resolutions already laid out so far (Nov-Feb).
1. Be Healthy  I am putting into action no snacking.   Drink my shakes for meals. Move everyday. 

2. Family History
4 years one month at a time and continue the search.

3. Civility
Mostly I am "working" at Keeping it together this month. "KeepItTogether""KeepItTogether""KeepItTogether"!

3b. Scripture study His Words Keep reading everyday everyday everyday.  I can only ___________ Me! (Insert word control, save, etc etc etc!)
4 books and the parables

4.Joy
I don't know what to do here. Throw it all away, give it all away or garage sell it all?   Keep it or move it? because of my lack of ability to make a choice on this I have only reorganized and re labeled.
The life changing magic of tidying up.  

4b. Repentance
I do need this everyday.