Today I Cry

Today I Cry

They that sow in tears shall reap in joy -Psalms 126:5

I do not know why

 it's unknown today why I cry

look at me - I shake, I cry.

I cry to blog and share why I cry!

I cry for friends and family

I cry because I have a headache.
I cry because I'm offended.

I cry to God because of this dark world in which we live.

I cry because I weigh too much.

I cry for protection for each of the ones I love.

I cry for my babygrands!

I cry to know and appreciate my heritage.

I cry in joy!!

I cry because I see skin that is wrinkled and old :(

I cry grateful to be alive!!

I cry to better show the love I feel for my neighbor.

I cry because I'm jaded.

I cry for that 17 year old inside me to LIVE ON!

I cry in sorrow for those I've hurt.

I cry for the pain I caused my Savior.

I cry because I've let myself get out of control.

I cry in celebration and appreciation of the rivers and the trees.

I cry for my mom.

I cry for that LIGHT that sometimes I let go of willfully and even at times unknowingly.

I cry because I let you go.

I cry because I miss my children.

I cry because I am so DANG PROUD of my kids!

I cry out in sadness being left alone here.

I cry when I find a black striped suit in the closet size 38L.

I cry because I have Not One Cousin!

I cry asking why is it that I have not one cousin and never have?

I cry because my hair is not doing what I want it too! or to? I know it's not 2!!

I cry because I miss him.

I cry for my parents and my siblings, I cry they are in a good place.

I cry in prayer for those I've lost.

I cry for those that need rescue, how do I save them?

I cry in prayer for their return.
I cry because I have offended someone, I cry for forgiveness.
I cry because I'm genuinely happy!

I cry to know family that live far away...

I cry again, asking how do I be a strong link to them from so far away?

I cry in gratitude for blessings I have.

I cry grateful to live in this beautiful place.

I cry because I see that I have so much,

 truly I am blessed and yet I still ... cry!

I do not know why

it's unknown today why I cry

look at me - on my knees, I cry.

I cry when I see this, for this is how I feel today! Thank you internet for sharing!

Drink long ASK QUESTIONS -

Today Richard and I went for Breakfast.  

We are having so much fun together alone!!! ;) I asked him "how do you think your parents sat at the Restaurant and talked and drank coffee for hours"?  (cuz they did)   He said "I don't know, they did though and talked and talked and talked."  

So we were wondering What did they talk about.  Anyway.... this conversation went weird - "I guess I didn't know my Dad at all." He said.  I responded "I guess I didn't know mine either. I'm still wondering why they lived apart for decades."  Richard said "They just lived separate lives.  He lived two lives.  He liked being away from home and Your Mom just let it happen that way."   

Isn't it weird that we don't know our parents?  Who they were when they were young?  who they were before they were married.  What they loved, talked about, believed in?  I made the comment that "I seemed to be more bothered by this now than I was when I was in the middle of it."  Richard said that "now you are them, you've watched your kids be them, (really ayris was your mom and it wasn't alright with her!)   And now you want to be YOU, You want to be in love, be a couple, have fun and Be happy".  He is right.  I DO.  

see I learnt alot last year!!

Today I say -  Find out who you are.  

Ask YOUR PARENTS QUESTIONS.  ASK YOUR KIDS QUESTIONS.

BE HAPPY it's how it SHOULD BE!