Oh I heard you!

August 1, 2016


I'm not here to float along
behind you - I'm just not.

Yes I fear, I am drowning!

There is no more float.

Throwdown Meltdown
Get Up Get Down

Voices coming from?

Positive negative; mom,You, me?
I want my own echo.

Choices - you can't make it for me

Battles within mine
so sick of it all I choose

Choose what Submission

Pray, Pray to who asking for what?

What matters ya'll get your way anyway!

Do I Submit.
Am I Selfish? or Empathetic?
An enabler or Sympathetic?
more like Pathetic!

Find myself Know my heart.
For goodness sake

Be satisfied.
with what?
with who?

I want happiness.

To know a smile.

To laugh, I used to laugh, where has it gone?
I'm jaded and alone
I need to FEEL again.

To make a choice without hesitation
without fear.

Fear of disappointment 

Fear of rejection

Fear of failure
Have faith you say
Have hope I pray
My sincere desire is eternal life
with the Love of Family and God
and self
Love In my own heart.
It's trust
I seek
and peace.
It takes two to not drown.
There is an undercurrent happening
a constant silent conversation going on.
There is white water all around.



It needs work but it's a ruff draft~
isn't that life? a ruff draft
I hope I get to edit and update in the eternities!!!