Tables Tea sets and Trash

Last nights had a dream, it hasn't happened for a really long time not like this nor like it did there for awhile with its detail and color and complexity so I'm logging it! I like to do it here because it's faster and more visual so I can remember it better as I go.

A group of us were at a concert lots of people and buses (of course) then we were at someone's house it wasn't mine but it was huge inside and out.  It had wood beams and was lined in wood everywhere. There were long halls and they were wide and open.  The kitchen was open to the dining area which had an elegant rectangular wooden table that glistened in the light with a very out of place shining chandelier.  Tea cups were out and tea? was being served to us I remember that they were tiny and thin to hold. 

We left and went to someone (I can't see who specifically), when we got there I see that people were everywhere, some sleeping in sleeping bags some just chatting. It was cold. Things were going on here that either I didn't want to know or that I was avoiding. 
I walked with someone (I can't see who this is - I want to, I'm trying to even in my dream) we left that place we were looking at little stick built buildings and I was choosing which one to buy to start a store in.  Then we followed a dirt road back to the people.  I'm pretty sure Blake Shelton was there!!! (Maybe it was his concert??).  

the table no kidding looked like this

Then buses came and some of them got on the buses to go somewhere, but I wanted to drive. I wasn't allowed to I wasn't in charge and I knew it.  We went back to the house where we had been.  Only now the table was round with long sections reaching out to chairs to sit on, it looked like maybe the shape of a flower clock?!!!  The tea was served again and I broke my tea cup (this part of the dream was so intense frantic and felt real the anxiety was heightened in my dream).  I looked frantically for a place to hide that I had broken this beautiful fragile cup and saucer. I found piles and piles of trash/ garbage. I tried to hide it in there so no one would see it and I found stacks of very neatly folded clothing.

Like In a store where the edges and lines of the clothing all meet perfectly I started to hide the broken teacups In between the clothes but then thought "it'll be too easy to find when someone picks these clothes out to line them up or throw them out the person will notice that I moved them" (for heavens sake they were in the trash)! So I found a bag and smashed this little set up fine and shoved it into a bag and buried it in the pile of garbage that people then came and gathered into boxes not cans and took away.  Like it was a storage or inventory warehouse.

  
Then I was back at the second house and the maid came in and started to clean the water glasses or beautiful goblets of some kind.  I offered to help but she said she would do it it was her job. So I went back to the kitchen people were there and I left with someone feeling no cause to stay in this house any more and we kept driving to that place where the people went on the buses. We all met back there, even the sleeping people were there. I thought next time I should just take a beautiful bus and not walk or drive so far out of my way.

would love to hear your comments!!!!

I "POaST" about my Life --- 1967 ...

4th grade

Spending more and more time at the stables.  
Dad and Tom tease me that I like "a little black kid".  I don't get it?? 

 My Friend Annette had a birthday in March and I wanted to take her a gift. My mother tried to tell me that it just wasn't going to happen, that we don't go into that part of town, again I don't get it.  I've learned since then that they called it "north town" or "the projects".  I did not know or even care that it was different place to live. "Please take me Mom" I asked again and again. I remember a long discussion at the kitchen table. She did take me. I will never forget that day. Mom driving me into that neighborhood and people actually coming out of their house and standing up on their porches watching us.  Again I didn't get it.  Mom sat in the car while I went up and knocked on the door and handed my friends mom her gift. They look bewildered.  I didn't get it.   
This girl was my friend, why wouldn't I take her a present or be invited to her party (which I wasn't by the way!). 
 I ran across this link I think it's super interesting and something at the time I didn't understand or even know about.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MILe8kYcwAY

Tom and Kelly

Seems as if mom is working LL THE TIME! I have to be home alone or go to the stables to do chores. I am not found of either thing.  I get in trouble when left home alone, I either bring people in or watch too much tv alone.  I definetly do my chores, Mom scares me! But the threat of Daddy scares me more.  Tom is now going to the stable everyday after school.  I miss hanging with him.  Sometimes he lets me go with he and his crowd to Papago Park to ride horses ... really, he wants me there so I can stand and hold the horses while they skinny dip in the lakes there.  I would never do that or even go in that gross water!  But I love going to this park and hiking and riding horses.  I am scared though when we ride on McDowell with all the traffic.  I love all of Toms friends.

Once my friends Marie and Cotton and I went riding on the canal bank and we were racing the horses back.  My horse screeched to a halt at a place where a side walk path went across the bank and I did not stop! I went over head first! Cotton road like the wind to get Tom.  When he got there he roped me and made me walk back to the stable behind he and his horse with that rope around me.  I went to school after the weekend and Mrs Hunsaker said "Kelly I think your arm is broken". She called mom. We went to the Hospital and sure enough, I'd been 3 days with a broken arm and all my hurting WAS real after all!!! Even though "It was too far from my heart to kill me",  "nor was it Bleeding!" as they all told me over and over again all weekend!!!

KellySue and Judyann when we still lived in the little green trailer

FHE  INSTRUCTIONS -Please Write your Dreams and your Fears...
Daddy
dreams;
Money
good race horse
new truck for my horse trailer
Fears;
I get the Blues
Lack of Money
Tom 
dreams;
Being myself in the Mountains and having Fun
RODEO
Working on a ranch I own
Fears;
revenge
that I'll run
not acting like "I should"
Mother
dreams;
Having all my family going to and in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
Going Back to School
Being thin enough to wear pants!
Fears;
no unity in my family and they don't go to church
neglecting my home
I don't study enough to improve myself
I wish I could SING!
Kelly Sue
dreams;
i want to be a fairy to make everyone happy give them what they want
i dream of being a teacher and hallering at the children!
I dream to be a mother
Fears
mom and dad mad at me
my toys are broken and gone
being left alone

Kathy and Tim

The Birth of Tim Michael McCoy in El Paso Texas ...

October 16th 1967     7 lbs 13 oz. to the parents Kathy and Tim McCoy 

Mom went to be with them in Texas. 20 Oct these are some Journal entries;
"I am lonesome daddy comes home late. I wait up for everyone to come home Tom isn't even here yet. I watched Perry Mason while I waited. I played like I was having Family Home Eve only no one showed up. I was alone and I turned to the 2nd lesson and I read about knowing Heavenly Father and that he loves me, it helped make me not to be afraid."

and a different night ....

"I was afraid tonight in the dark house I prayed and Tom came home in 5 min. It helps to pray I am glad I read about that last night for my Family Home EVE. I love my mom, I miss her.  Tomorrow I think I have to go sleep at the stable."


and then...
"always people at the stable, but I am still alone. I worked on my hook rug and cleaned the floors. Is that all I am good for to Daddy cleaning?  I believe I picked my mom to come to live with, I wonder why she is always so busy?  I love you Mom.  I miss doing your hair tonight."

TV/Movies/Music

Playing baseball at recess I was pitching and got hit smack dab in the pelvic bone fell to the ground. It was hot. I cried. They called mom I am ok.  I don't like to play baseball.  I like to go to the movies, dance, I like 4 square, jacks and kick ball!  I can't pay attention to read.  Story problems are the worst, reading and Math  eeeeewwwwggggghhhh!

I found this letter that Grandma wrote because she has a new great grandson thought I'd include it here... 

To you my unknown great grandsons and daughters,

I bequeath my love of God and all the revealed principles of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I bequeath my love of your great grandfather and for our children Otis, Iris and Elda Tomney. I hope you will cherish the memory of Philip Michael Tomney your Great Grand Father. And I hope you will love truth as he did and cultivate the virtue of honesty that he did.  I bequeath to you too the honor and respect for your step Great Grand Father Albert Robinson Lyman that I feel for him. He is truly a man of God, a patriarch, in the church of Jesus Christ and in age is now 87 and still eager to DO all he can for everyone to help them gain Eternal Life and I am grateful to him for all he has done for me.  May God bless you with a testimony of the truthfulness of the gospel.  With heartfelt for all my own 

Gladys Perkins Tomney Lyman

Cattle

I'm starting to get the idea!  peace and gratitude??? IDK!

Yes another dream!  I wouldn't record them and talk about them except they are vivid, so very real that they are in my head til I do write about them!!!

This dream had corrals with cattle in them a lake, pond, trough, some kind of pool of water.  The corrals were laid out all around the water.  It was dry and dusty.  It was time for church.  Someone young man came to visit us.  I can tell you the names of the body builds of who he resembled, but not the point.  I could also tell you the personality of him as he talked to us, also I don't think its the point either, except to say that Richard baptized him.  Anyway  this kid came over and I sat down by the pool of water to talk to him, this is a place I felt peaceful and comfortable.  I do remember rationalizing I don't need to go to church if I am doing good hear with this kid.  Richard not happy didn't go to church either, instead he went out to wrangle some calves in his cowboy hat and really really western botton shirt!!!  I listened to this kids "problem" he had gotten himself involved with a woman who had a daughter now he found some letters that were in opposition to the "story" she had told him and he didn't know what to do.  end of story.

Now I'm in a corral with lots of cattle and one BIG BLACK HORSE. (I remember thinking in my dream about the dream the other night that I was suppose to compare the corrals with the All the cattle in them to the white house with all the children in All the rooms - WEIRD!)  I was working with the cattle and outside the corrals in the (I can't say pasture cuz there was none) dirt the cattle were getting anxious and starting to move which caused the cattle in the corral with me to start circling!  The horse started getting flighty and jumping so I opened the gate and herded the cattle out which started a stampede.  I could see over to Richard, his buttons all shinny and was a afraid as her wrestled with the calves the stampede was going to run over him.  I hollered "Are the outer gates open"?  I was afraid that the herd was all going to run out and I'd have to go herd them back in.  end of story.

I am awake now.



So today when we went walking Richard asked me "What do you like about living in Nebraska? and what don't you like".  As we talked I heard myself "I like where we live.  I like looking at the water.  I don't want to necessarily get in it, but I find it peaceful.  I miss the green of washington, but I don't remember looking out at the trees and thinking 'this is peaceful'.  I'm not all that over whelmed with Nebraska per-say  but I am grateful for our job and our home and for exactly where it is.  The water is peaceful, like my living room!"

Be Grateful.  Be at peace.

Interpretation:

Cattle 
To see cattle in your dream indicates that you need to proceed with caution in some situation or relationship.

To see a herd of cattle in your dream represents a lack of individuality. You generally go with the flow of things. Alternatively, it symbolizes prosperity.

To see a stampede of cattle in your dream suggests that something in your life is out of control.

Church

It is representative of your value system and the things you hold sacred.

Water 

To see water in your dream symbolizes your subconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To see calm, clear water in your dream means that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation. 

Horse 
To see a horse in your dream symbolizes strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess. It also represents a strong, physical energy. To see a black or dark horse in your dream signifies mystery, wildness, and the unknown. You are taking a chance or a gamble at some unknown situation. It may even refer to occult forces. 

Buttons 
To see a button in your dream indicates a metaphor for being too "buttoned up" or refrained. You need to let loose and be yourself. also to see a button in your dream indicates that you are stuck in some problem, situation or relationship. You need to push forward. Perhaps, it is time to make a new start... the dream symbolizes second chances.

Airplane Crash

Last night I had another dream ....  what cha think?

We were sight seeing in a place with a very blue sky.  We had several cars.   The Pool water ran into the ocean.  (sky was bluer than this picture but i like the house I'm going with this one!!!)  

 Different children were everywhere.  The place we stopped to stay at was huge and white stucco with arched windows and green, green grass surrounding it.  It lots of rooms and the rooms all were busy and light.  The living room window was a window looking out on the ocean where I could see a light house.  The floors were wood not cement I remember thinking that was odd.  A group was at the kitchen table and some sat at the bar.

We took the children to the drive Inn.  In slow motion I sat back and watched as we had hibachi grill going, they were cooking hotdogs! The girls were blowing on white cotton ball flowers and watching as the pieces blew away in the wind.  A truck was turned backwards to sit and watch the movie, the kids were jumping on trampolines to the side.  It seems as if I could see all of my family and their children.  Parkers were there and Zane decided to leave he was going to fly home in an airplane, he wanted to take some of the children and we discussed it and for some reason (I can't find it, I've searched my mind for it all day) he didn't go.  Some of the families did leave then and took some of the children.

In slow motion everyone else left the parking area all in a seemingly choreographed orderly manner.  I was left there alone when from the deep blue sky (which it couldn't have been right? cuz we were at the drive in - night time!) 

A plane shot out the blackest smoke, not white and then started nose diving downward.  Then in fast motion turned started straight at me.  As I watched it coming toward me above the Drive In Movie screen my life flashed before me.  Then BAM! it hit the screen blowing up everywhere crashing into the parking area and I woke up, my heart beating and my adrenaline pumping!!

Now I've been wondering somethings all day and I've gotten no answers - But one of them being this - am I dead?  

So lets just say today has not been very productive!!!!! Yikes.

interpretation:
Movie 
To dream that you are watching a movie suggests that you are watching life pass you by. Perhaps you are living vicariously through the actions of others. Consider also how the movie parallels to situations in your waking life. Observe how the characters relate to you and how they may represent an aspect of yourself. Viewing them on a movie screen projects them onto another person and thus makes those feelings and actions seem more distant. Your subconscious is trying to protect you from experiencing them directly.
Children 
To see children in your dream signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state and longing for the past. You are trying to still satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurture. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting your innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude. If you are fighting with children, then it implies that you are repressing your inner child. The children could represent someone in your waking life (coworker, mate, sibling, etc.) who is acting like a child. If you see children fighting in your dream, then it means that your sense of morality and character are in conflict.
Airplane
To dream that a plane crashes signifies that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. You are in danger of having those goals come crashing down. Alternatively, the crashing airplane represents your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt. You do not believe in your own ability to achieve those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified.
Sea 
To see the sea in your dream represents your subconscious and the transition between your subconscious and conscious. As with all water symbols, it also represents your emotions. The dream may also be a pun on your understanding and perception of a situation. "I see" or perhaps there is something you need to "see" more clearly. Alternatively, the dream indicates a need to reassure yourself or to offer reassurance to someone.  It brings about hope, a new perspective and a positive outlook on life no matter how difficult your current problems may be.
Ocean 
To see an ocean in your dream represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. You have a positive outlook in life and are not limited by anything.

Money money money Give me some Money

Oh my krikee!!!

I've had another weird dream and even at this late hour in the evening it's still buggin me in my head....

I was at an event with lots of people with Jenni and Kassi!

Jenni

All of a sudden I was tied to a pole not with a rope but big fatty colorful snakes ...  What the heck?!

Kassi & Molli

Big fatty coral snakes!!!  And Yellow sand white ones!   I'm not sure what this means but I know that jenni and Kassi were not helping me one bit!!! I think they were laughing and giggling!!  What's that about?  Rude.

When they started to realize it was real and I was being squished to death they started to sing for money LOUD they sang "Give me some Money"

Vaughn and his peaceful spirit

And Along come Vaughn with his snake catcher and muscles with his sweet singing to the snakes and they uncoiled themselves and went to his snake catcher....

what is the moral of that lame dream!!!

Lizards & Moles & Bats Oh My!

Last night I had a dream that I went to a baseball game with nephews and their wives.  we left the game and went to get refreshment and a lizard turned mole turned bat went into the ground and came out again with the fangs of a vampire and he bit me and clung on to my arm finally he just let go.  UGE!  It's so crazy when you dream but especially when you dream in such Technicolor!!!

Dream interp is according to dream Moods.com is as follows:

 to see a lizard in your dream signifies your primal instincts and reactions toward sex, food, etc. and your anxieties toward these feelings. The lizard may also be representative of a person who you view as cold-blooded, fearful, or thick-skinned. 

to see a mole in your dream represents destruction and unforeseen danger. You are secretly plotting against others or someone else is working against you. Someone around you has their own hidden agenda. Alternatively, a mole is symbolic of your subconscious drives. You need to delve deeper and uncover what is going on.

To dream that you have a mole on your face or body suggests that something is interfering with your personal esteem. You are unable to gain the esteem of others.

 to see a bat in your dream symbolizes uncleanness, demons, and annoyances. Alternatively, bats represent rebirth and unrealized potential. You need to let go of old habits. Your current path is not compatible with your new growth and new goals. It may also indicate some unknown situation and how you are blindly entering into a situation or deal. You need to evaluate the facts more carefully. The dream may also been a pun on feeling "batty" or feeling crazy.
To dream of a white bat signifies death of a family member. To dream of a black bat signifies personal disaster.To see a vampire bat in your dream suggests that a person in your life may be draining your of self-confidence and/or your resources.According to Chinese folklore, if you see five bats in your dream, then it symbolizes good health, longevity, pace, wealth, and happiness.

And No ayris this bat didn't turn into DAMON!  dang it!!!!

I guess I might need to reevaluate my life according to these dream interpretations!!!