GO GO AMRIC BOT (as Gage would say)

 What makes us who we are?

This whole examine who I am thing thru Ayris and her college papers has me much more observant to what my role is and how it plays out in the lives of others around me especially my baby grands and my children  . . .

Here is my thought for the day...

We use to have rules in our house about the Phone, the Computer, the TV.  You have to go to school.  You get good grades, you work around the house, you don't work outside the house cuz your work is to succeed your job is School!  Amric somewhere along the line also got the job of Sports; football, baseball, wrestling all chosen jobs of his Father for him!  Things Change.

The phone isn't on the wall in the house any more.  The computer is in our hands individually without restraint, the Tv can be see anywhere anytime.  School is still school, but it has so many more "political correct"
nesses that how much "fun" can learning be and College forget it - doesn't sound fun at all!!  Jobs are hard to come by period. And Sports well thats where my thought is.  You aren't ALWAYS going to be #1.  BUT YOU CAN SUCCED YOU CAN DO WHAT EVER YOU WILL.  You don't always want to do it and You aren't always going to, especially if it's what your Daddy wants for you ;)  thus the story goes of Amric Zane and his Daddy!  Richard always told Amric and everyone that would listen "this kid is HUGE the size of a FOOTBALL PLAYER".  Along with that he would tell Austin "You better stop buggin him some day he'll be twice your size and beat the crap out of you!"  Amric has the best heart he would never do that (just so you know!).  He started Football, in the 3rd grade one day his soccer coach asked "has he ever tried Football?"  so in the 5th grade he was working out with the High School kids dragging tires around with telephone logs. Then in his 7th grade year he, himself sought after a Rugby coach and in the 8th grade was playing RUGBY with the High School kids.

He rafted the Rivers of Washington, Oregon & Montana with his dad.
they fished in Canada (but that's another story for another day!

His Sophomore year he played soccer!

ELMA EAGLES AYRIS AND AMRIC GO FIGHT WIN!

Then in his Freshman year due to him standing for what He believed in and an other Sport he loved trumping Football he retired from the game.  Devastation hitting his father.  Amric never slacked off at any sport practice or otherwise.  He always gave it his all.

KANSA CITY

His junior and senior year he played Rugby for Omaha his dad in full support anyway my thought in the beginning is He was told he was a big Kid that he could do anything, though it may not be what his Dad wants he believed his dad and is a Big Kid and Does What he Wants!!!  And is very successful at it!!!  We are very proud of him!!! GO GO AMRIC BOT!

Costa Rica!

Decide your PASSION

So today I am having a passion for FOOTBALL ya baby I am in Football mode!  

really, you ask kelly??? 

calm down...I'm not, but for some reason their is surely something cool, bonding and alluring about a football game, something that gives a person PASSION!!!  I love a football movie, and the I love it when people come home to watch games here with Richie.  But what I want to Post about today is... PASSION and not my passion for football.

What gives you PASSION?
and I don't mean in your pants?!!!!!

Amric and I are in a different chapter of our lives, summer is over and school is back in session and neither of us have anyone in school (at least living here at home) so it has confused us - what are we suppose to be doing? what is or should be the knew routine? what happened to our plan to be healthy? what happened to our goals to study together? We are free!!! Free to stay up late, to sleep in to eat what we want to exercise or NOT!  Thus I find that with this free agency we have found no PASSION!  I listen to people say when they were 10 they knew they wanted to make movie, when they were 15 they wanted to go into space,  that forever they wanted to be on American Idol, Big Brother or Survivor.  I heard this story just this morning one day when this father came home he put a Stanford hat on his sons head and said "someday you are going to Sanford" and he is!
     I myself had the goal for as long as I can remember to be Married and stay married and live in the same house together, never moving.  I wanted to teach dance and have my own studio.  I wanted to lead youth groups and have foster kids that loved our family and returned often to share the love! I wasn't raised to go to college, school definitely not a passion.  But a PASSION, a real beat all, fight for everything never give up passion - what is that and what is mine???  The dictionary describes passion as (besides the sexual and lust aspects) strong emotion and enthusiasm.
     I can say that my passion (looking at it this way) is to keep my family together for eternity to make connections with lost family and to have a HOME where they all feel comfortable to come visit. Is that bad, if that's my passion, seems so non publishable!  Even now, with my adult children and my "happy at his job husband" is it still a passion if so what can I do to feel passionate about it?   I DO have goals to do to make this Passion happen but lately I haven't looked at the big picture.

 I have taught my kids a couple of quotes in my attempt to accomplish this PASSION they are;

• "the Chief cause of failure and unhappiness is giving up what you want most for what you want right now"
• "remember who you are"
• "Save a girl save a generation"  along with
•  "Don't YOU be the Weak LiNk". 

I can honestly say that except for "Remember who you are" these quotes were made after my Mother raised me, but without her and her Passion for me to not fail to bring the family together these quotes would not have touched my spirit and kept the PASSION alive.

anyway... to keep on keepin on I need to set some goals, I read a quote yesterday that inspired me to recognize this "People do not decide their futures, they decide their habits and their habits decide their futures" which lead me to this post today!  I am reminded I can't just let myself fall into a habit everyday I need passionate goals to decide my future to not be the weak leak and to have a HOME where anybody can, will or even wants to come visit.  So to reevaluate and find my passion...

1. I want to tell my stories.  (the problem is I don't want to proofread or use correct gramar!)
2. Study gain more knowledge  - (BYU free online classes) 
3. spiritually strengthened - Study Seminary stuff daily  (apply to teach EFY)
4. BE Healthy - back to TSFL.  goal loose 60 pounds.  remember I lost 57 and now have gained back well a few!!! 30ish! lets just say im back in my fat pants!!!
5. MOVE - 30 min to 1 hour a day.  (Maybe walk outside?)  really go outside - scary!!!what's happened to me?  I used to be a hiker, a campfire girl I wanted to be outside???
6. Know the current events -read the paper know what is going outside and be able to talk about it.
7. limit my social media!!! ;(             (I kinda have a passion for facebook!)
8. genealogy names - new names I need to find more people connect more dots (I'll take my passion for facebook and turn it to Ancestry.com)
9. I need to find passion in everyday things - (I will "deep Clean" One room everyday!)
10.  I want to have a community organizer passion, gardening passion and a square dancing passion! I'll work on goals to get there next!!!

I notice as I set and reset goals here some of them are I want to, some are I will and some just this is the goal.  Guess I have work to do - wish me luck!  I'll check back with myself here!
So what's your passion? how did you know it? and what have you done to achieve it?