I "POaST" about my life --- 1964 ...

Mom worked hard to hold a Family meeting with us once a week!!!  This was one of our activties and the results....  
Describe who you are...  each family member (1-4) wrote something about said person...

• Tom... 1."able to ride horses fairly good."   2. "Mows the lawn very good."  3."It is a great talent to be able to accept disappointments and not be resentful - like not getting to go to the show last Friday."    4."Very co-operative in anything he is asked to do."    He wrote about himself; "Try to not gripe and just do everything told to do."
• Kelly Sue... 1. "She tries to learn."    2."Good Worker, does the dishes."   3."Dances pretty good when she trys."   4. about myself I wrote; "I keep the house clean and bathe and mind my parents. I be good and mind my manners at the table. I be nice to my friends."
• Daddy... 1. "He likes Red and he likes steak."   2. "When you say something you almost always get it done - your way, which I guess is good."  3. "He is nice to us." 4. "Thoughtfulness for others is a truly fine quality - Like not working me when I was tired." (I don't know what that means!!!)  He said this about himself; "I like to see that my family is provided for."

mom and daddy

Tom starts to Rodeo!

I really want too barrel race at the rodeo, but I'm not allowed.  But here began my love of the Rodeo.  The people, the RUSH, the "fashion", the stress of it all!

  I wanted to be there and be involved always!!! But for some reason Dad pushed me away and only accepted Tom.

Judyann not doing well away at school.  

Seems she found the kids who didn't follow the honor code at BYU!

She also keeps fainting!!!

No one knows what the heck is wrong with her.

When she was home on break, she got into a huge fight with mom and mom slapped her in the face.  "I went to my bed and cried for hours. I will never be mean to mom like Sissy is."

Timmy certified for scuba training in the Army.

Some of my favorites in THE WORLD were ... 

I "POaST" about my Life --- 1963 ...

1st grade

Tom, Sis and ME 1963

Mom was sick alot this year.  As she would be as long as I can remember from here on.  She worked many, many hours and we saw Dad on the weekends.  I wonder why we lived like this?

Grandma Gladys and Grandpa Lyman
I always was amazed at her hair!
It touched her butt and she braided it on her head in a circle!

Grandma Gladys came to visit.  I really love her.  She is a good good woman.  I am grateful I have a good grandma. Too bad, we don't live closer, she is my only grandparent that I would know.  I am always confused about Grandpa Lyman, seems the older people call him Uncle Albert, but to me he is "Grandpa" and I know him no other way.  He is my Step GrandFather.  He was also married to Grandmas Sister before she died - Mary Ellen Perkins Lyman Sept 28 1882 -May 13 1939

Judyann graduated from Mesa High School, she just didn't really care - mad at "parents" for moving her away from Montrose her Senior year!
She writes home often though and loves her roommates; Janet Crandall, Linda Bang, Genay, Eve Evans.  She is at BYU.  She lives in Heritage Halls.  Her Major is Business Teacher Education and Minor in Accounting. She loves to IceSkate. In one of her letters she asked Mom to send her "a cup", she's at BYU so she "can't say 'coffee cup'"!!!  She writes that "10 of the varsity football players got kicked off the team for getting drunk in Washington DC! Now they'll never win"!!!  School is hard and she really studies hard and works hard at it and "gets B's and C's very very frustrating" for her. I remember she used to say that she would study and work hard for her grades while Timmy didn't study or work hard and he would get A's it was very frustrating to her.   She plays Tennis!???

this is the year kennedy was shot  

I was riding the bus home from school today and I heard them talking on the radio, they were saying that someone shot the President.  It just got silent on my bus, like we just knew it was an awful thing that had happened and they just told us on the radio.

I "POaST" about my Life --- 1962 ...

I now live in Arizona....

One of the very few FAMILY pics I have with all of us in it 1962 a family vaca to Mexico the only vacation I know of that we all went on, and it was probably just a day trip or maybe a weekend to the border town El Paso!

My Donkey - Chilibeans!  Phx Stable 48th st. and McDowell

When we first moved to Arizona Judyann was complaining that she didn't want to go to church with strangers!
I of course responded to her positively cuz I like people so much with the comment;  "strangers are just people we haven't met yet!"  I am pretty surprised at my outgoingness when I was young!  Daddy was barbering at Luke Air Force Base and Mom quickly got a job at Willis Linen Supply.

Japanese Gardens on Baseline in Phoenix
Daddy Me and Tom  (guy on right?? - it's his donkey!)

The Fashion!

One day in Day Care I fell off the merry go around and was sent to the Hospital diagnosed with Acute Hepatitis.  I was unconscious for 24 hours. The doctors and nurses were surprised when I was cheerful as soon as I woke up.  Mom says I told them "thank you for helping me" immediately!!!

In March Timmy came home from Fort Bragg.  He was headed out to Language school in California down by San Diego his first step to being a Green Beret.

Timmy 

Timmy - Green Beret  - on the job!!

We bought a horse riding stable in Phoenix Daddy named it The Double T Riding stable and tack Company!!! It was the first of many long years spent in a family divided between Mesa and Phoenix and later Tempe town too!  

Phoenix Riding Stable 48th Street and McDowell
Me and Mom, Daddy and Tom behind Judyann

The Family and the Relatives;

Blanding Utah at Grandma and Grandpas

1962 Tom and Lyn Lyman Family

Don Smith Family

THE WORLD AROUND ME;

The Beatles

Although I did not see West side story til much later This is it's year!

The Rolling Stones

Music was changing, media would never be the same!!!

I "POaST" about my life --- 1961 ...

My Dad went on vacation, his first vacation since 1948, he spent two weeks in Phoenix Arizona.  He always hurt because of the cold, so he was also looking for a new warmer place to live.

I had the mumps.  I don't remember much about my home in Colorado, but I remember sheep in the pasture and tending them with my brothers.  I remember the siblings driving fast and crazy down the dirt roads and letting me sit in the back with no safety in place - me being scared to death!  


I remember the dogs.  The chickens. The rabbits.

I remember in the front yard asparagus growing in the ditch and the huge tree that I used to climb in.  

I remember the shoot where we loaded horses and cows into the trailers, along with the scariest dog in the world that was always tied to it because if she wasn't she was eating the chickens or my dolls!  

She was "Relish" a "bird dog" and she belonged to Tom.  Gobby was the family dog she was a "sheep dog" and I believe she was mine! I do remember feeling a companionship with her.  When we move to Arizona Daddy kicks her out of the car leaving her behind to run free.  He said "Someone else will take care of her Obe."  I remember staring out the back window and crying watching her run towards the car and becoming smaller and smaller as we drove away. 






And thanksgiving was spent at my wonderful Grandparents; Gladys and Albert Lyman home in Blanding Utah!

The truck

In remembrance

 of the World in 1961

The Vet

My favorite and where I got my nickname!

The Man Enters Space!

Kennedy Man of the Year

Judyann went to stay with Aunt El and Uncle Blackie in Salt Lake.  Aunt El is sick her gamma globulin is 6 and the doctors tell her she can't live if it is even 4!!  Sis writes about going to Mutual and being in the Dance Festival.  She seems worried about money and is borrowing clothes from friends and "found a swimming suit for $7.00" but she had "no $7.00."  She reports she misses Timmy and wishes she could wish him a happy birthday.  She is doing all of the dishes and cleaning the house!  She hiked Timp and had no sweater so someone loaned her one.  Sad to not go fishing with Aunt El and Uncle Blackie!  She says things about her friend Connie like "she is so sweet and cute", I must say ... this doesn't sound like my sister at all, (no money and talking talking all kind)!!!  She also visited Aunt Enone and stayed with her a few days.  Aunt El insists she needs glasses and is going to take her for an eye exam!

Aunt Els truck and dog - and Kelly Sue!

I'm lookin a little shy there!

Yay It bugs me and I do Have an ax to grind but maybe...

I just want to bury the ax to too 2.....

So this dream contained lots of bugs and axes in the ground atop the openings to the bugs life below ground.!  Trains for travel and Fighting for land. Trees and big huge revienes.  I had this dream in Utah so I didn't (couldn't) blog about it.  But it was documented in my journal and keeps re-appearing so need to post it here so I don't forget and so I can get it out of my head!

To see a BUG in your dream suggests that you are worried about something. It is symbolic of your anxieties and/or fears. What is literally bugging you? Consider also the popular phrase "bitten by the bug" to imply your strong emotional ties or involvement to some activity/interest/hobby/person.

To see an AXE in your dream - is symbolic of destruction, hostility, and the frustrations that you are experiencing. Perhaps you "have an ax to grind" with someone. Or the dream can be a metaphor that you are ready to "bury the ax" and make amends.

the Axes were positioned as they are pictured above ONLY
 placed into the opening of the BUGS homes as seen here.

if you see a freight train, then it refers to the burdens and problems that you are hauling around. It is also symbolic of manual labor.

The freight train couldn't get up out of the huge revienes.  I hoped out of the train and landed in a giant beautiful green tree from there... when I could finally see ahead, the ground was covered as far as the eye could see with axes.

To see lush green tree in your dream symbolize new hopes, growth, desires, knowledge, and life. It also implies strength, protection and stability. 

So much emptiness

How can the house be full of people and the event be kind and special and cozy and wonderful and still I can feel so empty and all alone?

Time changes so quickly, one second life is well.... and then BAM -it's not!  

Without prayers continuly life is much harder. Expectations and heartache are much more deeply felt.

I don't get it.
I don't get it.
I don't.   

I can give and give and give
Say I'm sorry over and over and over
But when is it enough
When is it really over so the cut doesn't keep cutting deeper and deeper

How can I just forgive myself and not care what or how anybody else feels? How?

The Best way out is always thru